Friday, May 25, 2012 at 12:39 AM // RainyMood
I like to torture myself when I can't sleep at night… With RainyMood and a sad song. Tonight, I decided to up my stakes with my Mandopop play list + RainyMood + (real) pitter patter of the raindrops on my window ledge. I wanted to cry after about 5 minutes.
DON'T JUDGE!
Who will love you? / Who will fight? / Who will fall far behind?
Thursday, May 24, 2012 at 12:12 AM // Getaway
I have really crazy ideas sometimes and… I'm not too proud of it. The latest one that came to my mind was to pack my bags, grab an air ticket & leave the country for a weekend trip (to a neighboring country) with a stranger that I've barely met, or known, for that matter. Or an acquaintance, whatever you call it.
Dangerous, insane, impulsive yes but spontaneity makes life worth living, right? Until that acquaintance of yours turn out to be a drug lord or felon or rapist, that is.
Can't wait to get away for a little while in a month's time.
Strangers reading this space, anyone?
Drop everything now, meet me in the pouring rain.
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Sunday, May 20, 2012 at 10:14 PM // Things I tell myself to feel better after an epic drunk night
1. "Everybody needs a friend like this."
Yeah, somebody's gotta be the drunk one in your group of friends that needs taking care of. I volunteer to be the one. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA
2. "Bad mistakes make good stories."
… Only when you remember it. Which I don't.
3. "Learn your lesson and don't do that potent shit next time!"
I remember telling myself the same thing last year… Look who's talking!
4. "You're never going to see the people you saw last night anymore in your life."
Which never happens because they are my friends and I still want to see them!
5. "You can only do this when you're young."
But… I'm turning 22 this year. Which makes me 21, still. Okay, justified!
6. "Get over it! Everybody has their epic drunk moments as well. It finally happened to you!"
Okay. m(._.)m It's always better to tell myself everyone does that when they don't, so I don't feel alone right?
7. "This is the only big thing that's happened to you this year that you're going to remember for life. You've done it, no regrets!"
Yah like how I fell and tripped over a bike, nobody who saw that ever forgot about it including myself. It's already been so long… Oh my god. I may never forgive myself.
8. "If you don't remember it, don't even try to recall. You probably don't want to know the embarrassing shit you did last night… Let people forget about it. Let yourself forget about it."
9. "What happens at the bar stays at the bar."
10. "Thank God for friends like them who didn't ditch me when it was a chore to sit with me as I vomited my life out, drag my feet to the cab and up the stairs… Focus on how to thank these people and shower them with gratitude instead of beating yourself up over the remorseful shit you wish you didn't do."
And that's what I'm gonna (try to) do. Thank you all so much (if you're reading this my dear friends) and I owe you all so much, big time!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please forget what I did… Don't waste your memory space on me. HAHA... AND! No more of such dramatic nights, I promise. xxx
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Lastly… Recounting on all the fail I did last night:
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Thursday, May 17, 2012 at 1:58 AM // Pensive
《爱 LOVE》by 钮丞泽
－ － －
“因为爱，所以原谅。”
第五次了。。。 每次看这部片子，一定会想起该片放映时我刚好正在经历的一件人生大事。怎么忘也忘不了自己在片尾的时候不由自主的放声的大哭彻底崩溃泪洒电影院。。。真的吓坏了身边陪我看电影的人吧？
对于那件事我一直认为我自己没错，所以不低头，甚至当时不回应，不想，不闻，不问。
天真的希望我真的能忘记，然后时候到了就把一切从记忆里删除，当着什么也没发生的继续下去。
天真的认为自己过两天气消了，就可以还原之前的一切一切，继续嘻嘻哈哈做回彼此的好朋友。
天真的认为我大量得可以宽恕这件事，而你也会等我让我淡忘，然后道歉告诉我你很抱歉你错了你后悔你要得到我的原谅你要继续当我的好姐妹我的知己。
但你，没有。
就这样的，你把我从你生命中彻底的删除了。
一点也没留下。
好残忍，
留下的只是措手不及的我，还有一大堆被丢弃了的回忆。
我，错了。
错在认为我自以为懂的你会珍惜这一段这么精彩，刻苦的友情。
错在相信你口中说得把友情摆第一其他摆第二的一滩大话。
错在对你，对我们的友情期望太高以致这么大的失落。
错在以为，我们的友情坚强的可以度过这难关。
错的，不单只是我。
我放不下，因为当我应该表达自己内心想法的时候，我选择了以沉默回应。
害怕在对的时候说错话，想要冷静的处理好自己的思绪后再来过，
结果竟这样错过。
“时间会冲淡一切，是治疗伤口最好的良药。”
过一段时候，我能以平常心来看待这事吗？
“要失去，才能得到。”
失去一段友情，得到了一堆感触，体会到待人待事应有的处事态度。
值得吗？
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Monday, May 14, 2012 at 11:05 AM // PRIMADONNNNNNNA GIRL
THIS IS SO DAMN INFECTIOUS.
Since I accidentally clicked on this video on YouTube a while back it has been stuck in my head and I *think* I heard it on the radio just now… So here! Good things are meant to be shared right.
Primadonna girl, yeah
All I ever wanted was the world
I can't help that I need it all
The primadonna life, the rise and fall
You say that I'm kinda difficult
But it's always someone else's fault
Got you wrapped around my finger, babe
You can count on me to misbehave
All I ever wanted was the world
I can't help that I need it all
The primadonna life, the rise and fall
You say that I'm kinda difficult
But it's always someone else's fault
Got you wrapped around my finger, babe
You can count on me to misbehave
P.S. Check out their entire album! Fantastico. Teen Idle!
Oh God! I’m gonna die alone
Adolescence didn’t make sense
A little loss of innocence
The ugly years of being a fool
Ain’t youth meant to be beautiful?
Adolescence didn’t make sense
A little loss of innocence
The ugly years of being a fool
Ain’t youth meant to be beautiful?
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Saturday, May 12, 2012 at 9:49 PM // QUATRIEME
PLEASE GO AND SEE AH, EVERIBARDI.
TANGS EVERIBARDI TANGS!
*PS QUATRIEME means fourth in french.
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Sunday, May 6, 2012 at 5:59 PM // FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
I hate exercising or anything that makes me sweat… Working out is too much work.
I'd much rather starve myself than to run a mile to lose weight…
Hahahahahaha that's probably why I don't deserve to.
OH DARN!
I am a slug-gette baguette.
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